Zak's birthday party is tonight. Yes, the same Zak whose group of friends think I am a glorious badass of awesome proportions, and dubbed me "Rufio" a while back. The same group with whom I invented the "Bangarang!" and awesome mixed drink. Plus, I'm going to get drunk, and I need it (my pulled calf won't stop hurting).
I still prefer this song out of all of Kanye's:
"I'mma get on this TV mama. I'mma put shit down!..."
Tonight's alcohol is intended not not only numb oput my pains, but make me either more empathetic toward the drama going on around me, or to completely block it out. I never thought I would find people with more twisted love lifes than my own...
(and I still haven't yet)
...but a few of my very close friends are coming tremendously close. Guys and girls alike. It's as though the cosmos aligned this year to do a select number of things:
- see me graduate college
- in the same year recession will probably send us into "The Greater Depression"
- me want to be in a relationship again
- at the same time that everyone else's relationships suck, making me have doubts
- giving me a renewed vigor to better myself
- when no woman will ever even give a shit
...I'm not ready to be a full blown catholic again, or any kind of christian based denomination...but I am ready to have a lot more faith. I will need it for the trials to come. I decided again to observe lent. I gave up Mt. Dew (I'd already gave up most other junk food), I started the new regimen, I am giving up procrastinating on projects and there's also one more (secret) plan I want to accomplish.
I had also planned on finishing my new song, but that might have to wait. At any rate, I need to get back to work. Just giving you all an update. Much love and such...oh, and if I drunk dial or text you tonight, please don't hate me, and take everything I say with a grain of salt. Mmk?
over and out,